Out of the Notebook and into the blog

Sunday, July 20, 2014

My Smile is Intimidating? - Self Esteem of a Server

After being a host at Red Lobster for a few months, I became a server, and have entered a world of brutality.  Remember a thousand things at once, trying extremely hard to impress guests and to be constantly on my tip toes trying to not make any mistakes.  However, I've found that no matter how hard I can try, there will always be that one person that you can't please.  

Today my best friend came into Red Lobster to eat with his cousin, who I hadn't ever met.  I was obviously very excited to see my best friend and being a naturally very smiley person, I was all smiles.  Afterwards, being my curious self, I asked my friend if his cousin liked me…he replied saying his friend was intimidated by my smile.  

This bugged me.  That one little statement from a stranger, brought down my self esteem faster than poison ivy welts form on my legs when unknowingly step in a patch of it on the way to the lake (and considering I'm highly allergic to the stuff, it's pretty quick) and made me question myself.  Should I start smiling less?  Am I weirder than I thought?  Is my smile not pretty enough?  What is wrong with me?!  *breaks down crying over Red Lobster cheese biscuits*

And then I realized…why am I caring over one random guy's tiny first impression about how much I smile?!  What do I owe to him to even consider changing who I naturally am?  I have probably made 100's of wrong first impressions, it's human nature, as inevitable as the law of attraction.  Tonight I realized that there isn't any reason I should judge myself based on one customers first impression on me.    

This realization isn't anything that is earth shattering or brand new by any means, but it's something that is so easy to forget.  Have you seen the Stop the Beauty Madness Campaign that has gone viral?  It has simple stock images paired with blunt wordings that make us realize how absolutely ridiculous the strain of perfection society and even ourselves expect us to achieve.  

We all have those moments when our self esteem crashes.  What is something that drops, or has dropped, your esteem down in a matter of moments that you know is SO ridiculous?  Let's share our secrets in the comments!

Sunday, July 13, 2014

My Guilty Summertime Pleasure…..

I was reading an article in a magazine about how chic Athletic wear is so trendy right now, and J-crew and Urban Outfitters do create some pretty tempting and fashionable pieces that tempt me…but I always end up going for the pretty sundress.

They are SO comfortable and cool, and perfect for picnics and walks around Lake Calhoun here in Minneapolis!

I just picked up these two gorgeous dresses from Modcloth the other night….my total came to I believe $54, not bad.  I had a $20 off code from being referred by a friend and thought I would share it with you here so you can take advantage of it as well!

Here is the Link to get your $20 off of a $50 purchase, bringing it down to $30…Your welcome!

Friday, May 30, 2014

Weekend Notes: Pointe Shoes and White Roses

There is so much work to do at home in Minnesota, I have been overwhelmed.  Between my job as a waitress at Red Lobster in Blaine, working on developing my photography business, ballet lessons nightly, college decisions, and spending time with my lovely friends, there's hardly been a moment to breathe since I've been home.  

This weekend I'm in Wisconsin to celebrate my sweet little cousins birthday and to watch both of my little cousins dance recitals.  The relaxing weekend is much needed.  

Weekend Love

On the Art of Choosing (if decisions make you weak in the knees like they do for me…)

Horses and Tulle - yes please.

What are your weekend plans pretties? 

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Adult Ballet - On Pointe at Metropolitan Ballet Academy MN

Sitting on the floor of the studio, no matter our ages we all become little girls again, watching in awe as the beautiful prima ballerina Sarah or Milo dances across the floor in her pink satin pointe shoes, effortlessly, as if she was a feather in a wind.

In this moment I hoped she'd never stop.

One of my best decisions was to join Metropolitan Ballet Academy last Autumn…I had dreamt about learning the challenging role of a ballerina since I was little, and decided that it was time.  

Dedication ripples through the studio, minds working to memorize intricate patterns, sweat dripping of girls foreheads, passion showing every time you push through a shaking foot, trying to maintain a pointed foot.  Easy isn't the word that anyone could use to describe the dance of a ballerina. 

The excitement of purchasing my first pair of pointe shoes is definitely similar to one of a child's!  After working towards this for months, I took my first class on pointe Wednesday night, and all I can say is pointe is so tough to maintain and learn! Albeit, worth it till the end.  

Have you thought about trying Adult ballet? 

Monday, April 14, 2014

Savannah College of Art and Design

I've been in the process of figuring out which college I'm going to transfer to next semester.  I have over 60 credits from Anoka-Ramsey Community College in Minnesota, I started with PSEO in high school and now with my Freshman year of college coming to an end, it's time for me to start my major classes. 

Have you heart of SCAD?  Savannah College of Art and Design.  My mom and I hopped on a greyhound from Minneapolis to Atlanta and went on an adventure to tour the college….I do not recommend riding a greyhound across the entire country.  All I can say is, fun-ions stink about an entire buss.

I have grown up traveling, months at a time, and Savannah Georgia definitely is on my top 4 favorite places list.  The college was absolutely stunning and I felt tears in my eyes touring it.  The students were so passionate about everything and the campus is extremely gorgeous.  The hardest thing for me in determining which college I'm going to attend is the difference between my interests…business or fashion marketing?  The programs don't entwine and the same schools.  

After touring the college, my mom and I headed out to Hilton Head Island.  Oh. My. Beautiful.  I met a boy there while I was swimming in the ocean and were swimming and finding loads of these living sand dollars, we would step and find them with our toes, our numbers probably were around 50!

While we were swimming, the boy (who lived there) and I saw a bunch of fins pop up probably a hundred feet out.  The boy exclaimed "I wonder if they are sharks or dolphins?"  The look on my face was probably shifting between awe and fear before his eyes…and then he looks at me and says "I'm going to go swim out to them to see."   

I died.  They were dolphin's though, and they eventually came and swam touching distance away from us for a few precious moments.  Magical.

And the shops in Savannah are amazing!  They are Pinterest Inspiration galore!  Little vintage clothing shops, luxury fabric shops, Free People, Anthropology like stores that are 3 times the size and even more beautiful…. Go … Go… Go…

Wednesday I will be touring Colorado State University in Fort Collins in hopes to major in Business Marketing and Political Science.  What will be will be!

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

This Girl Katie Herzig you must Hear

There are some people that illuminate a brilliance in what they do - but that no one knows about.  Why is that?  I am here to share with you one of these wonderfully talented people that I so happily discovered years ago - but someone that you probably don't know the name of yourself (though you might know her music...)

I pronounce the ever lovely...Katie Herzig!

You've heard her songs in Pretty Little Liars, Greys Anatomy, Lipstick Jungle, and One Tree Hill and TINKERBELL!  Yes that's right...Tinkerbell!  You've also heard her songs in the cutesy playlists of cutesy shops...and the Red Lobster play list as well!

Three Words to describe Katie Herzig's Style:  Bouncy, Catchy, Deeper than Words

Listen when you want to:  Feel hyper/happier/bouncier and when you want a song that doesn't sing about the perils or sexiness of love.

I honestly wonder why this girls songs aren't on the radio yet.  Like what is wrong with you IHeartRadio?

Plus...she is releasing a new album called "Walk Through Walls" which I can hardly wait for!  Listen up to the first song release of her new album here ;)


Which artists/entrepreneurs/amazing people in general that makes you wonder why the rest of the world doesn't know about them?  Please Enlighten us in the Comments below!

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Places to Be: Nightmares Fear Factory

Every year our counties 4-H program hosts a haunted house.  I think some of my favorite moments of being in 4H happened here, putting together the house and carnival, and organizing it.  Being the county ambassador for many years, I always oversaw the progress and offered my input.  We had some good years, but I was never able to have a strong enough leverage (being a youth) to really implement mine and the other ambassadors visions.

I just recently found out about the Nightmares Fear Factory in Niagra Falls and oh my goodness, how I would love to go!  I think to truly scare someone you have to reach to an inner psychological level, you can't just have people pop out here and there, there must be a play on emotions and ones brain - and I definitely feel like Nightmares Fear Factory has accomplished this.

Plus - They take photos of everyone the moment that they get scared...so much better than rollercoaster snaps!

All photos courtesy of Nightmares Fear Factory